I do apologize, but I am not including a hand of the day.... As I first mentioned, some of my blogs will be about poker, but some will also be about my personal life, and what I am thinking. Well today's blog is about what I am thinking, and feeling. So I apologize in advance if I offend anyone, but I do need to get some things off my chest.
First of all, yesterday(Jan 16th) was my birthday, and I was very much looking forward to it! For those of you who don't know, my wife and I split just over 3 yrs ago, and while I have no feelings for her, and haven't since we've split, I've always just kept to myself on my birthday. Well, tonight was the first time since we split, that I was actually going to go out on my birthday, and had even made plans to go out with some friends, one of whom shares the same birthday.
While it was better than years past, this birthday still could have been better. First of all, instead of driving myself to the meeting place, I had to rely on someone else to get me there since my car was not going to be functional. Well, my ride to the bar(which was only a 5 min drive away) decided there were more important things to do, like be on his computer. Like 10 mins out of his night would have made all that much difference.... Just because I did not have a ride, that was not going to keep me down, no sir! I decided to walk there, now mind you, this was around 9pm, and it might have been 30 degrees, maybe not, but it was somewhere around there.... But I was bound and determined to make this a better birthday than years past, and I wasn't going to let a thing like no ride stop me. I got about half way there before that special birthday girl who shares the same birthday decided to come get me, and not make me walk the whole way to get there(thanks Brandy, and Megan, as it was your vehicle).
We get to the bar, and I start having Cap'n and Cokes...what better way, right? In the course of an hour or so, I managed to down a few, and some other drinks that were put in front of me. Brandy then decides we needed to go somewhere else, as the combination between the alcohol and the music that was playin, was about enough to put someone to sleep. We decided to go to a small town bar, in my old stomping grounds(and by that, i mean the same town I went to high school in). We spent the last 2+ hrs there playing pool, and drinking of course, and all in all, it was a good night.... Could it have been better? sure, things can always be better...
If there is one thing I've learned from tonight though, it's that I will no longer be other people's doormat, and will not be the Mr. Nice Guy that I have always been....I know I've said this before, but this time I mean it, and this year is going to be a new Josh, one that some people may not like, but one that I believe will get much more respect, and will keep me headed in the right direction.... Just giving you all a heads up now, so you are warned ahead of time. For those of you that don't like the new Josh, well I'm sorry, but it's something I've got to do. For those that respect the new Josh, and look forward to the new Josh, then welcome to the ride, it should be a fun....errr....interesting one.
Now does this mean I am going to change the way I interact with everyone? NO, not at all...just with those that seem to take advantage of me, and those that tend to hurt me. So if you haven't done either of these, you have nothing to worry about, I will be the same ol' Josh, with maybe just a lil bit more of attitude ;)
So in closing, I hope everyone's upcoming year is a good one. For me, it should be VERY profitable, in a monetarial, and a mental way.... GO Vikes! show those Cowboys whose boss!!